I began writing with an inner churning that had taken hold since my practice early this morning. A restlessness and focus on doing. With a bit of worry thrown in. It is very insidious the way the churning starts to creep in.
It was really gibberish that I wrote today, but as I wrote, I could feel the churning slowing down. And by the time I stopped writing, I felt peace.
This is a huge step for you. Heart-writing isn’t always about content. That’s why I encourage writing the 3 words after, to take your attention back to your experience rather than staying focused on content. The content reflects your experience, which is primary.
I find Reiki practice when consistently done gives me confidence. With this program, by practicing more than usual, I notice I want more of this experience. Look forward to see what steady practices would bring.
Might it be that rather than giving you confidence, steady self practice keeps you in a state in which you experience more of who you truly are. And more and more and more as time goes on.
Realized that my gremlin was there to protect me from criticism by telling me I wasn’t adequate before someone else could tell me so it somehow decreased the sting. Very convoluted. I thanked the gremlin for doing that and reassigned it to cheering me on instead, to be my cheerleader. Also realized, sadly that I have passed my gremlins on to my kids. I feel very grateful for this writing, as well as freer.
In my writing I questioned my motives. Do I do what I do because I believe I have to act that way or because what I think is expected of me. And if so, is that a bad thing if that makes me try harder. Am I being honest to myself? Is it possible to know what is the truth? Food for thought and further heart writing ❤️
Any writing is valuable, Nicolien, so it’s great that you were exploring.
That said, in case it’s helpful, heart-writing isn’t directed in the way you seem to be indicating; we don’t ask ourselves questions, we just let go and write from the heart.
To reiterate, all writing is beneficial, self inquiry is important, and heart-writing is free, open, led by the heart, not the mind.
I began listing everything that Reiki is good for. Which evolved into everything is Reiki. And then the writing sort of dissolved into a warm feeling of Loving.
Churning
Dissolving
Peace
I began writing with an inner churning that had taken hold since my practice early this morning. A restlessness and focus on doing. With a bit of worry thrown in. It is very insidious the way the churning starts to creep in.
It was really gibberish that I wrote today, but as I wrote, I could feel the churning slowing down. And by the time I stopped writing, I felt peace.
This is a huge step for you. Heart-writing isn’t always about content. That’s why I encourage writing the 3 words after, to take your attention back to your experience rather than staying focused on content. The content reflects your experience, which is primary.
releasing; more; anticipating
I find Reiki practice when consistently done gives me confidence. With this program, by practicing more than usual, I notice I want more of this experience. Look forward to see what steady practices would bring.
I’m excited for what you’ll discover.
Might it be that rather than giving you confidence, steady self practice keeps you in a state in which you experience more of who you truly are. And more and more and more as time goes on.
Nurturing, silent place.
fear
freedom
gratitude
Realized that my gremlin was there to protect me from criticism by telling me I wasn’t adequate before someone else could tell me so it somehow decreased the sting. Very convoluted. I thanked the gremlin for doing that and reassigned it to cheering me on instead, to be my cheerleader. Also realized, sadly that I have passed my gremlins on to my kids. I feel very grateful for this writing, as well as freer.
A parent shares everything with their kids, Carol, even the things we’d rather keep to ourselves.
Can you heart-write and feel the sadness, and let the self-acceptance arise?
Everyone has something to overcome. That’s actually the good news. That’s how we discover what we’re made of, who we really are.
You wouldn’t want to rob your kids of that, would you?
Remember, they’re also seeing you overcome. 😍
to please
pretending
the truth
In my writing I questioned my motives. Do I do what I do because I believe I have to act that way or because what I think is expected of me. And if so, is that a bad thing if that makes me try harder. Am I being honest to myself? Is it possible to know what is the truth? Food for thought and further heart writing ❤️
Any writing is valuable, Nicolien, so it’s great that you were exploring.
That said, in case it’s helpful, heart-writing isn’t directed in the way you seem to be indicating; we don’t ask ourselves questions, we just let go and write from the heart.
To reiterate, all writing is beneficial, self inquiry is important, and heart-writing is free, open, led by the heart, not the mind.
Theories
Surrender
Loving
I began listing everything that Reiki is good for. Which evolved into everything is Reiki. And then the writing sort of dissolved into a warm feeling of Loving.
Loving is good for everythjng.
Perhaps Reiki means that state from which love arises.
Yes.
I want to reflect more on this.
Words are so important.