I contemplated on my nature of not liking human-ness while trusting humanity. There are conventional beliefs I’d like to overcome and I may be able to overcome.
Maybe instead of “overcome,” which seems so confrontational, you might think in terms of “dissolve.”
As you self practice consistently and heart-write as you choose, you’ll dissolve the obscurations (including undigested emotions) that keep you from seeing truth. When you see truth, there’s nothing to overcome.
Meanwhile remember 2 things can be true, your trust in humanity and your aversion to human-ness. Of the two, which do you think is more real?
Felt resistance to the word “should”, in today’s prompt because it gets in the way of my being present and feels judgmental. I did a lot of think writing-about something that was bothering me. It took a long time to finally get to the point of realizing that my gremlin, that likes people to see that I am right, kept poking me. I realized that being right is a space that I don’t want to occupy since it is dependent upon other people’s perception of me. I choose compassion for my self.
Powerful self awareness and discovery, Carol! Even think writing is helpful and it’s great you noticed the difference.
Did you stop to let your gremlin speak? That’s important. We need to hear what our gremlins have to express. We can’t circle wide of that step.
Choosing to avoid the space of being right happens when we’ve healed the undigested emotions that need to be right.
As you move into that clearing, the drive to be right will be less compelling, making it easier to notice when you’re headed toward that road and make other choices.
Awareness isn’t enough. Consistent self practice marries it to healing so we can truly transform.
A hallmark of transformation is feeling less inclined to go down those old roads, even feeling mild anxiety when you’re getting snookered by your mind and fear to try it one more time.
Thank you! This is very helpful. I was afraid of letting my gremlin speak. Interesting. Stepped back into fear of not being adequate enough. Will write on this.
The prompt didn’t get me started. But, at one point I wrote about my family relations and I didn’t want to stop. I was curious what was there to discover… It was only the top of the iceberg that I touched.
When I started writing, all the “shoulds” came pouring out. Reiki should do this and do that. And I’m a failure because I should practice Reiki better. A very constricting point of view that I wasn’t aware was so pervasive within me. I have a Should Gremlin.
As I wrote, I felt a release and letting go. And tears of relief came.
I think this may be another side to the little two year old in me. Though the voice of the Gremlin originated from my parents.
Paper is a very good place to pour the “shoulds.” You might want to burn that paper 😂
I don’t agree that the voice of any gremlin starts with our parents. I think we come in with our own set of fears and we focus on communications that match them. I think we also project our fears into our interpretations of others’ words and behaviors.
I’m not implying your parents didn’t give you a lot to work with, but seeing where fear and other emotions come from within me seems more empowering and thorough, like pulling the weed out by its roots.
Yes, the willingness to engage in the old soul searcherooni makes the difference.
Wanting to be free deeply enough that we’re willing to endure the discomfort of seeing our own unwise choices.
It’s not “blaming the victim,” but rather seeing when we make ourselves vulnerable in an unhealthy way, such as by “trusting” the wrong people rather than trusting people will always act in what they perceive to be their own best interest.
The balance is to be both vulnerable in a positive (and realistic) way, and not available for exploitation. Not even when it comes in a really entrancing package.
That’s why getting balanced, staying that way, promptly returning to balance when stuff happens (as it will in life) makes the critical difference.
When we’re balanced, we make choices that support our balance, not from fear, but from understanding that’s our job.
Take care of your state…
Astrid Kempesays
Integration
Light
Belonging
This morning on my way to work a saw road workers scraping an old arrow off the street…this felt so symbolic to me. You don’t have to search or follow directons that were once given. I’m here -in this moment-exactly where I’m meant to be, at the right place, at the right time.
Yeasterday I gave Reiki to a friend, and it was so wonderful. He had such great session (honesttly, so did I) Afterwards, he shared what he experienced , how it felt for him.
what a gift!
flowing, rebellious, overcoming
I contemplated on my nature of not liking human-ness while trusting humanity. There are conventional beliefs I’d like to overcome and I may be able to overcome.
Maybe instead of “overcome,” which seems so confrontational, you might think in terms of “dissolve.”
As you self practice consistently and heart-write as you choose, you’ll dissolve the obscurations (including undigested emotions) that keep you from seeing truth. When you see truth, there’s nothing to overcome.
Meanwhile remember 2 things can be true, your trust in humanity and your aversion to human-ness. Of the two, which do you think is more real?
stuck
wallow
clearing
Felt resistance to the word “should”, in today’s prompt because it gets in the way of my being present and feels judgmental. I did a lot of think writing-about something that was bothering me. It took a long time to finally get to the point of realizing that my gremlin, that likes people to see that I am right, kept poking me. I realized that being right is a space that I don’t want to occupy since it is dependent upon other people’s perception of me. I choose compassion for my self.
Powerful self awareness and discovery, Carol! Even think writing is helpful and it’s great you noticed the difference.
Did you stop to let your gremlin speak? That’s important. We need to hear what our gremlins have to express. We can’t circle wide of that step.
Choosing to avoid the space of being right happens when we’ve healed the undigested emotions that need to be right.
As you move into that clearing, the drive to be right will be less compelling, making it easier to notice when you’re headed toward that road and make other choices.
Awareness isn’t enough. Consistent self practice marries it to healing so we can truly transform.
A hallmark of transformation is feeling less inclined to go down those old roads, even feeling mild anxiety when you’re getting snookered by your mind and fear to try it one more time.
Thank you! This is very helpful. I was afraid of letting my gremlin speak. Interesting. Stepped back into fear of not being adequate enough. Will write on this.
Chatter, rambles, quiet.
resistance
turnaround
curiosity
The prompt didn’t get me started. But, at one point I wrote about my family relations and I didn’t want to stop. I was curious what was there to discover… It was only the top of the iceberg that I touched.
Shoulds
Critical
Tears
When I started writing, all the “shoulds” came pouring out. Reiki should do this and do that. And I’m a failure because I should practice Reiki better. A very constricting point of view that I wasn’t aware was so pervasive within me. I have a Should Gremlin.
As I wrote, I felt a release and letting go. And tears of relief came.
I think this may be another side to the little two year old in me. Though the voice of the Gremlin originated from my parents.
Paper is a very good place to pour the “shoulds.” You might want to burn that paper 😂
I don’t agree that the voice of any gremlin starts with our parents. I think we come in with our own set of fears and we focus on communications that match them. I think we also project our fears into our interpretations of others’ words and behaviors.
I’m not implying your parents didn’t give you a lot to work with, but seeing where fear and other emotions come from within me seems more empowering and thorough, like pulling the weed out by its roots.
What do you think?
Thanks for a very thought provoking reply.
Yes. I see your point. And, I can see the difference that makes. Mich more empowering.
Thank you🥰
Thanks for your willingness to be thought-provoked! 😂
One of my favorite quotes from Rumi: If you’re bothered by every rub, how will your mirror be polished? 😍
I love Rumi.
Thinking about your reply. It is perhaps the difference between being a victim and being empowered.
Yes?
Emma and Pamela, I found what you both wrote very helpful. So many good points to chew on. Thank you!
Yes, the willingness to engage in the old soul searcherooni makes the difference.
Wanting to be free deeply enough that we’re willing to endure the discomfort of seeing our own unwise choices.
It’s not “blaming the victim,” but rather seeing when we make ourselves vulnerable in an unhealthy way, such as by “trusting” the wrong people rather than trusting people will always act in what they perceive to be their own best interest.
The balance is to be both vulnerable in a positive (and realistic) way, and not available for exploitation. Not even when it comes in a really entrancing package.
That’s why getting balanced, staying that way, promptly returning to balance when stuff happens (as it will in life) makes the critical difference.
When we’re balanced, we make choices that support our balance, not from fear, but from understanding that’s our job.
Take care of your state…
Integration
Light
Belonging
This morning on my way to work a saw road workers scraping an old arrow off the street…this felt so symbolic to me. You don’t have to search or follow directons that were once given. I’m here -in this moment-exactly where I’m meant to be, at the right place, at the right time.
Yeasterday I gave Reiki to a friend, and it was so wonderful. He had such great session (honesttly, so did I) Afterwards, he shared what he experienced , how it felt for him.
what a gift!
What a powerful image, Astrid — that’s no longer the way to go! 👍 😂
When you write “I gave Reiki to a friend,” do you mean “a Reiki treatment,” or something else?