Interesting to see two people’s sharing on their response to today’s prompt because that is how I felt and how I ended up practicing with this prompt twice as I got lost yesterday. Then, while I am not interested in going out there to show myself to the world, I see I still want the world to respect and value me as I value myself.
It might be interesting to explore your wanting respect from the world given that you’re not interested or motivated in stepping out. What do you think?
I also find this aspect of myself a bit ironic. Maybe it is more about not wanting to be less valued. But why am I afraid or do I feel shy about showing myself openly? I assumed it is associated with my introverted nature.
It’s great that you’ve identified that it’s an assumption, Eunsoo.
My question is: why settle for assuming when you can actually discover what’s true for you? You have the practices to do that. Now add commitment and determination and your success is assured.
I realized that there isn’t anything that I want the world to know. I just want to be at peace in myself and feel free; not pleasing others or directing things. It isn’t about others knowing, it’s about my creating a safe haven within myself.
Today was a day to regain balance. The writing contributed to that, it helped to make clear how I really feel. My mind tends to reason my anxiety away.
The mind can reason all it wants; that has never solved anxiety. We can’t heal something by pretending it doesn’t exist, no matter how hard we flex the reason muscle.
There are many causes which contribute to anxiety; regaining balance helps regardless the cause. Take care of your state… 🥰
As soon as I began to heart write, a petulance that I had been trying to ignore all day, emerged. I wrote about all the things about which I am discontented. I had a very petulant response to the prompt. I wanted the whole world to know, but I also didn’t care if the world knew or not. . Very much like a small two year old.
As I wrote, a sort of peace came over me. The act of acknowledging the feelings I had been trying to stuff, didn’t fundamentally change the feelings, but softened them.
Great description, Emma. The emotions don’t fundamentally change, they dissipate; they become less urgent…
Some might actually disappear, but when we hit an emotional vein as you might have with this, it takes more than one pass.
What do I mean by an emotional vein? When we get near an underlying emotional predilection, so it’s not residual emotion from a specific event or time, but a habit of viewing from a perspective that is emotionally painful, such as the belief that we never measure up.
Helpful? You might ask that 2-year-old what else she has to say, and just listen, or let her write. She’s one of your voices, and my sense is that she has some secrets to share.
calmer, fresh, good
Interesting to see two people’s sharing on their response to today’s prompt because that is how I felt and how I ended up practicing with this prompt twice as I got lost yesterday. Then, while I am not interested in going out there to show myself to the world, I see I still want the world to respect and value me as I value myself.
It might be interesting to explore your wanting respect from the world given that you’re not interested or motivated in stepping out. What do you think?
I also find this aspect of myself a bit ironic. Maybe it is more about not wanting to be less valued. But why am I afraid or do I feel shy about showing myself openly? I assumed it is associated with my introverted nature.
It’s great that you’ve identified that it’s an assumption, Eunsoo.
My question is: why settle for assuming when you can actually discover what’s true for you? You have the practices to do that. Now add commitment and determination and your success is assured.
settle
float
flow
I realized that there isn’t anything that I want the world to know. I just want to be at peace in myself and feel free; not pleasing others or directing things. It isn’t about others knowing, it’s about my creating a safe haven within myself.
That’s valuable insight, Carol.
Sometimes people have something they need to get out there, or they’re holding out for others to know about them, before they can feel peaceful.
moving…continuing…quiet.
equilibrium
together
truth
Today was a day to regain balance. The writing contributed to that, it helped to make clear how I really feel. My mind tends to reason my anxiety away.
Wonderful, Nicolien!
The mind can reason all it wants; that has never solved anxiety. We can’t heal something by pretending it doesn’t exist, no matter how hard we flex the reason muscle.
There are many causes which contribute to anxiety; regaining balance helps regardless the cause. Take care of your state… 🥰
Light
Trust
Healing
Rejoice
Petulant
Discontent
Acknowledge
As soon as I began to heart write, a petulance that I had been trying to ignore all day, emerged. I wrote about all the things about which I am discontented. I had a very petulant response to the prompt. I wanted the whole world to know, but I also didn’t care if the world knew or not. . Very much like a small two year old.
As I wrote, a sort of peace came over me. The act of acknowledging the feelings I had been trying to stuff, didn’t fundamentally change the feelings, but softened them.
Great description, Emma. The emotions don’t fundamentally change, they dissipate; they become less urgent…
Some might actually disappear, but when we hit an emotional vein as you might have with this, it takes more than one pass.
What do I mean by an emotional vein? When we get near an underlying emotional predilection, so it’s not residual emotion from a specific event or time, but a habit of viewing from a perspective that is emotionally painful, such as the belief that we never measure up.
Helpful? You might ask that 2-year-old what else she has to say, and just listen, or let her write. She’s one of your voices, and my sense is that she has some secrets to share.
Pamela, I think you are spot on.